Way to make people feel hated eh? People think I hate them, I really don't. I really just don't like stupidness. I see so much potential and its just getting wasted, it really just frustrates me to no end. But thats something to talk about later. A lot of times I sit and wonder why people tend not to like me. I think its because I'm brash and confident and maybe even egotistical with nothing to be such an ego maniac about. I'm just an average guy who hasn't found his thing yet. The future still scares the shit out of me. I find myself often thinking about it and drawing white lights and blanks doesn't satisfy me. It actually angers me. Right now I find myself pondering over such thoughts with cold play viva la vida coming out my stereo. People think I'm a rap guy, but besides T.I and Eminem, throw in a little Drake I hate it. Those are the only three guys I really connect with when they rap. I get there lyrics. Lately I find myself listning to a lot of All American Reject oldies, Fall out boy is on heavy replay too. No clue why though, one song led to an avalanche. I hate it when I hear a song on someones else's ipod or phone and I can't identify it though, because there good songs and I should know them and I just don't. I find my self to afraid to ask. I really am afraid of new people and new things. I hate the idea of walking up to a random stranger you don't even have the slightest clue about and introducing yourself but communication is always the key. Which leads to the reason I made this blog. I bottle things up inside, and it makes me a very angry emotional guy. Things that my mom did to me that scared me mentally that I still hold inside. No body really knows but its okay because just alluding them is lifting a heavy weight of my shoulders and I already feel so much better. Speaking of feeling better my knee is so much better! A day at the park with friends yesterday was just what the doctor ordered! Hope the x-rays come back positive so I can go play baseball, sports take my mind to a place that finds me lost in the game. In college i will def have to find something diff to do though, sports are not in my future. I guess that's all for today, until later....
Mike
